Then and now: A personal evolution
A few months ago, I embarked on a personal project full of hope and expectation, only to find the world wasn’t as receptive as I had anticipated. Despite multiple attempts and much effort, responses were elusive, and the silence echoed louder than any reply. I felt disappointed but chose not to give up. I turned to other pursuits, leaving room for this dormant project to resurface when the time felt right. And though success that in the traditional sense didn’t come, something even better emerged: clarity and peace by just sorting out challenges.
This period has also brought challenges. My sister and I have been navigating legal formalities and government procedures after our father’s passing, only to find a system bogged down by inefficiencies. Time and again, we encountered delayed responses, repeated documentation requests, and inconsistencies in communication. While such experiences used to leave me frustrated, I now approach them with patience and acceptance, recognizing that even systems and people falter, just as I sometimes do.
Love, loss, and letting go
Relationships—be they family or friends—mean the world to me. Yet, sometimes, they bring more pain than joy. When a cherished relationship recently ended, I chose to release the hurt with acceptance, understanding that my peace mattered more. And when I bid my final goodbye to my father, the love and memories outshined the pain of his loss. This approach wasn’t always my instinct. I once let hurt linger, allowing it to affect other precious connections. Now, I choose to cherish and heal, letting go of relationships that no longer serve my peace and nurturing those that do.
Reflecting on these experiences has shown me how deeply I’ve grown. When earlier failures or rejections would make me feel inadequate, today I view them as signs of redirection. I no longer question my self-worth based on external feedback but hold fast to my value, knowing each setback may simply mean something else is waiting for me. Each relationship and challenge has given me a gift: a new layer of understanding, a gentler, wiser me.
The journey within
I’ve learned that the journey inward leads to the most profound changes. Sorting out challenges and accepting imperfections—in myself and others—has shown me the strength that comes from empathy, self-compassion, and inner peace. It’s a slow, patient transformation, nurtured by self-reflection and connections with others who, like me, are journeying through life’s highs and lows.
Instead of focusing on external flaws, I seek inspiration from within, viewing challenges as mirrors reflecting areas where I can grow. This inward journey has granted me new lenses through which to see myself, and each day, I perceive a more complete, joyful ‘me.’
Illustration: Navni Chawla for Lotus
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Beautiful Subhashini. So powerful 👍